When the exact thing that you wanted walks right up to you, and says that all you have to do is reach out and grab it, what do you do?
Do you reach out and take the jump? Immediately start living the way you want to be?
Or realize that you don’t want it anymore? Say that it is what you used to want, but you are not sure anymore?
You can’t both want something to be easy and just handed to you, and to have earned it. Handed to you, and earned are contradictory.