Do I want her to be my girlfriend or do I want nothing to do with her?
Is she interested in me, or am I someone who is here to entertain her when she is bored?
Would she stay in the area for me? Would I stay in the area (and turn down a job) for her?
Could I, Do I want to spend the near future with her? Do I think she is a waste of time?
Do I want to know her last name, Do I want to meet her family, her friends, where she works?
Or do I want the mystery?
Do I trust her?
Do I stay with her for the times when she is my world? Do I just use the idea of what I want her to be to add to my fake personality, my fake character.
I know what I wanted when we first started. It’s still the same. I have yet to let her in on the secret.