I had agression problems as a young child, and I’d always get mad and throw a fit. I learned quickly to hold back and control myself.
If you’ve read other posts, you’d understand how intense I was raised to hold back sexually. No cursing, even if everyone else did. Not talking back, not sharing opinions, studying instead of playin video games. There’s a culture of holding back.
I’ve had homocidal and pedophilic desires. I can’t control them any more than wanting to eat ice cream, but I’m not at risk of doing either. I could hide them, but I’d rather have those who feel the same get help instead of continuing in silence until they crack, and how can I expect others to do what I cannot do myself? Lead by example.
Quitting your job to work for youself, what’s holding you back?
Approach the girl, what do you have to lose, what’s holding you back?
… I’m just use to holding back in this culture that teaches one thing and expects another.
I’m doing exponentially better than before, but I’m still easily burned.