“I Would Do Anything For Her”

Take a look at Peeta from The Hunger Games.  Has he become the norm of what boys have to face nowadays?

Boys are taught to watch from afar, and have a rescue instinct that makes it so that they cannot make a move unless the girl needs help, needs to be rescued.  But they dote on a specific version of a girl – one who is a fighter, one who doesn’t want to be rescued.

Girls have been treated as second class citizens for hundreds, thousands, if not millions or billions of years.  But if they are not prepared for their new generation of freedom, they have the option to surrender to a man of their choice.  They can even become a “Sugar Baby,” and get paid “for their hotness.”

The problem is not the impossibility of going back to the older ways.  It is possible for a male to walk up to a female and ask her to give herself to him.  The confidence, the masculinity of it would make him attractive.

The issue is that the boy has a strong mother, one who feminizes her son.  She is the strong woman and demands that her son follow exactly what she says, and the father goes along because she is intimidating. The son sees a strong woman who takes charge, and pushes the boys in line.

So the boy cannot take demand masculinity due to his inability to ensue insubordination, but he can only find desire for a girl who is powerful, in charge, and above him.  She would not be his equal, she would own him.

There are girls who are willing to be the girl for this guy, but not the girl that he dotes on.


Motion, Time, and the Bar of Mis-Balance

Time is what I regard as the greatest healer of all things.  Time will heal both physical and emotional wounds, and if used right can help you achieve your goals.  However, that is only if time is used in the right way.

Newton’s First Law of Motion states that things in motion will stay in motion.  But how does this apply to time?  Well our world doesn’t like change, and has forces that accelerate actions rather than slowing them down.  Nature does balance, but it only balances when it already has a policy in plan that catches hold and pushes the force back into place.  If nature doesn’t have a policy in place to fix your problem then you should not expect your problem to go away with time.  You have to grab hold of the problem and push it back into the desired direction.

*The body has different types of fat cells, and there are different ways to burn fat.  White fat cells, Brown fat cells, appetite, metabolism.  As you gain more weight your body gets used to gaining weight, and burning off that weight becomes harder.  The farther you have spiraled the harder it will be to push the balance back to the other direction.

*Depression / SH / Addiction :  Once you’ve hit rock bottom, then you have nothing to lose.  Whenever anything bad happens you will have feelings and thoughts in your head that someone else would not have to endure.  Unlike them you don’t have to be curious if it works, how it works, if it’s safe enough, how to do it.  It’s as if you weren’t fixed well in the first place.

Don’t despair.  If all of these works in bad ways why wouldn’t they also work in good ways as well?

*The more money you have the easier it is to make money.  Investing, security, ect.  If you can buy a house you are investing in real estate rather than paying someone else rent.  If you can pay off your car & student loans you don’t pay interest.

*Being happy releases hormones that keep stress and anxiety at bay.  You will get sick less often, and you will have to deal with less problems.

*The one bad thing that could ruin your day becomes simply a slight obsticle.  you can just deal with it, and then move on with your day.

*You will be more fun to be around.  People prefer being around happy people, and they prefer to help out happy people.  People prefer to be with happier people.

Keep this in mind when you go about your day.  Your choice is yours to make, and I am not one to judge you for how you live your life.  I would just like you to be aware that with every action you make you are making a choice concerning which direction this bar of “mis-balance” is headed in.

How Labels Affect You

In my last dream journal (#7), I mentioned how the persona I was in the dream was cute dumb.  Being stupid was a part of the persona, and it affected how he/I behaved to quite a large extent.  He wanted to be seen as the cute person, adorable, and that person to him was also stupid.

The problem with this, as well as other labels, is holding him back from who he could be.  He likes his label, and doesn’t want to lose it.  In turn, he doesn’t come up with ideas on how he can accomplish tasks (get the map to the girl’s place in this situation).

Caring what other people think of him is also hurting him, but this self-label of his is much worse.  As a human when you age you have to change with the time as well.  I’m not saying that labels are bad (although they don’t help), but what I’m saying is that you have to be ready for change, and you have to think:

What labels do you have that are there to make you look like an idea, like something you want to be rather than yourself?  Because if you have labels like that I want to push you to think about how labels like that are paper thin, and make it harder for you to be yourself.

Dream Journal #7 – Sweet as Molasses

Three parts, three dreams, and all in a five hour span.  I woke up in the middle of a dream, and decided to ruin a good night of sleep to write them down so that I don’t forget.  Some dreams are just so sweet that it leaves a good taste in my mouth.  The good taste/feeling often lasts entire days.

#1.  As I was watching a movie I was starting to fall asleep, and I thought of how I needed to turn off the movie, do this or that.  Which I did, and I would have sworn that I did- only I didn’t do it, but instead dreamt it.  It’s funny, yesturday’s dream involved me eating my headphones since they were entertwined, as well a sturning into, toffy.

#2.  I was sitting in this room chatting to a small group of people.  I was trying to go out on a “date” with these two girls.  They first was already in the small group, and I would have to run to the second’s house, and if I would not get to see her.  The first I went on a “date” with there and then, but it was like clicking a button or saying one word and it was over.

I was asking people to print me out directions and I could just run there since I had the same attributes as Captain America (had just watched the 2014 movie where he ran 14miles in half an hour which I assume is why it was in my mind). But unlike Captain America I knew the girls were only interested in me because I was super strong which made me unique, and because I was adorably stupid.  I couldn’t get them to print out a map which made the first girl angry who left with everyone else.  I don’t know if that was true/ but it is true that I never gave her a chance since I was brushing her aside in my attempts to reach this other girl.

The dream ended with me having a small cut apart printoff of one street number which made me realize how I had her address.  Maybe I would have searched it if my dream had lasted a little longer – but alas, my phone had the volume turned on.

#3.  You know how when you look into a rifle’s peephole you see sight.  While waking up I had this semi-connected dream where I was driving a car, but when driving the car it was like focusing a gun – and it’s not the same as aiming a bullet! You need to be able to see where you’re going when you drive more.  So I pulled over, which I was happy to do since I …?  Why was I happy to pull over?  I wasn’t alone in the car either.

Devotion of a Seven Year Old

For those of you who do not know Mormons are baptised at the age of 8 where all of their sins are washed away, and any sins that remain after the age of 8 are kept for life. (Until repented, but my 7 year old self did not know that).  My older brother had just got baptised a little earleir (he is 14months older than me), and he got himself into trouble days after his baptism.  I remember thinking that I was going to not complete a single sin after mine.  This spurred two thoughts into my mind:

  1. Wishing that I would be chosen by God to fulfill his personal wishes.  I was willing to be chosen to kill and fight his enemies.  Not because he had them, but it was in my realm of what I was willing to do to show my devotion.
  2. I loved my family, and longed to be able to show the highest love and devotion to both them, and my God.  The highest level of devotion to me was remaining strong during torture.  And this lasted for ten years where I wanted nothing more than to be tortured, and die from the torture.  Not because I wanted to die, but because I wanted my life to have meaning.

Because if you die at the end of your lifespan, and nothing continues afterwards in the athiest poist of view, then there is no reason to live in the first place.

If there’s no everlasting benefit that you are working towards, and it all ends anyway than what is the point?  So obviously I’m biased towards religion which is much more complex and interesting than, “it. just. ends.”  As well as why immortality is so estatic in my mind.  The beautify of Twilight for me lies in the estatic euphoria of this immortality, and it’s a shame that no one I try to explain this to understands.

HIV/AIDS HOAX – Conspiracy Theory

It is important to hear people out when they bring up their theories and not just shrug it aside.  Doing so, and saying that it is ignorant does two things.  1) What if they’re right, and 2) Ignoring them makes them do the same to you, and ignore any data that you try to bring up.  Do you listen to people who disrespect you?

Some of the major arguments that HIV and AIDS don’t exist, or/and are not connected:

There are no retroviruses that cause disease – they are harmless

In retroviruses the DNA created by the virus is integrated into the host genome.  You could say that damage to the host is a mistake, unintentional.  So I would say that it is true that the intention is not to overwhelm or spread as fast as possible before the cells die.  This stress of the DNA can believably lead to cancer which is one of the main issues found with retroviruses.  One example: Rous sarcoma virus (RSV).

An argument for immunosuppression caused by retroviruses is that there are actions done by the viruses to hurt the immune system such as how the antigen presentation by dendritic cells is suppressed in HIV-infected individuals (PMC 1414836).  In other words the immune system stops announcing what infections look like.  The cops keep driving around but can’t tell apart criminals from normal civilians.  My example here will not use this pubmed article, but instead be FeLV.

CD4 T helper cells

  • The virus does not exist; it has never been isolated as an agent in diseased individuals.

PMID: 2949638: Isolation of human immune deficiency virus from African AIDS patients and from persons without AIDS or IgG antibody to human immune deficiency virus.

PMID: 2128364: HIV isolation from whole blood: a new approach to HIV detection.

  • If you test positive for HIV, and test positive for something else such as tuberculosis, it is called AIDS.

Immunodeficiency, HIV might play a factor, it might not.

  • False positives, just test until you get the result that you want.

But if you’re positive, and take the drugs you’re more likely to continue to test positive.

HIV and AIDS are not connected

  • 3) In violation of Koch’s third postulate, pure HIV does not reproduce AIDS when inoculated into chimpanzees or accidentally into healthy humans (9, 12, 13).
  • Dr Robert Willner Injects himself with HIV on TV and strangely dies 4 months later.
  • 5) It is paradoxical that HIV is said to cause AIDS only after the onset of antiviral immunity, detected by a positive “AIDS test,
  • 8) It is paradoxical for a virus to have a country-specific host range and a risk group-specific pathology. In the United States, 92% of AIDS patients are male (19), but in Africa AIDS is equally distributed between the sexes, although the virus is thought to have existed in Africa not much longer than in the United States (20). In the United States, the virus is said to cause Kaposi’s sarcoma only in homosexuals, mostly Pneumocystis pneumonia in hemophiliacs, and frequently cytomegalovirus disease in children (21). In Africa the same virus is thought to cause slim disease, fever, and diarrhea almost exclusively (22, 23).
  • Dr Robert Willner offered $100,000 for any document that proves HIV causes AIDS

Taking the anti-viral drugs will cause AIDS, and taking these drugs will kill you.  Don’t take the drugs and you will be perfectly healthy.

  • AZT causes the symptoms of AIDS, and kills people
    • Shelved because it was too toxic to treat cancer
    • AZT was released with falsified information, the trials required to show efficiency were not performed. It questions the reality of the placebo section of the trials, and inferences that it is likely that they were killed.
      • Other problems with the test (By Dr. Robert Willner).
        • The placebo had 31 side effects
        • They had found out if they had the drug the first week in.
        • Admitted to sharing their drugs with members of placebo group.
        • Members of the AZT group had six times as many blood transfusions.
      • http://aidsperspective.net/blog/?p=749
        • This means that if my patients had enrolled in the trial it’s probable that there would have been no deaths at all by the time the placebo arm was discontinued and thus an apparent dramatic effect of AZT on mortality would not have been seen.
      • Conspiracy theory to make money, and hold onto face
      • No data that supports these as a cure or helpful to treat the virus

Youtube Bloggers:

Website which lists people who denied of AIDS to die from it ~Age 50. http://www.aidstruth.org/denialism/dead_denialists

HIV is not sexually transmitted

Just as simple as it sounds, they say that there is no evidence that states how/if HIV is transmitted sexually.

  • Nobody had HIV transferred to them through heterosexual sex during a 10 year study.
    • PMID: 9270414
    • Incorrect, the report came out to be ~20% of men, and 2% of women. The statistics of the women may be contributed to false positives, but also attributing it to males would be a lie.
    • However, that 20% that into account more factors than just sex, and did not disqualify people based on IV drug use and similar accounts.
  • HIV is likely spread along with other STI
  • Robert Willner will have to stick himself 300 times to transfer the virus.
    • Though a little pinprick between two fingers isn’t very convincing…
  • First in the history of science that the number of incidents is lower for doctors and those in the medical profession than the average population.

The first outbreak of AIDS started through homosexuals that did not want to believe that their lifestyle was the cause of their problems.

  • Large amounts of cases of Kaposi’s sarcoma
  • Large amount of sexual partners
  • Poppers/ multiple sicknesses at the same time due to going to the bathhouse

No reference standard for HIV tests

  • Peter Duesberg
    • Duesberg did not have any funding or grant issues (every single one of his applications were funded, until after his first paper was published.
  • David Rasnick
    • Not sexually transmitted

In Conclusion:

  • You’re more likely to get AIDS if you’re male (92% of HIV positive in U.S.)
  • Dr Robert Willner offered 100,000 for any document that details how HIV causes AIDS
  • Use a condom (There are other STD’s)
  • Don’t use AZT (It will kill you)

Remain Silent:

Scientists who speak out lose their jobs, dissapear.  Parents who chose not to give these treatments to their children are faced with having their kids taken away. All of what I read was by people who died five months later, had lost their grants, and their jobs.

If curious, learn more:

Weeding Out The Hardworkers – Conspiracy Theory

With all the loops and holes you have to jump through people are bred to be one thing or another.  Elementary school which is basically free daycare, middle school, high school, required classes and college.  You need a 4.0 GPA where the classes are picked out for you, and you are told what is important to study.  The better you are at jumping through the hoops the more likely you are going to be able to get into Med school, Pharmacy, Law, PHD.

You have to want it, you have to work hard for it, and you have to be willing to sacrifice for it all.

The less you’re willing to jump into debt, the less willing you are to go back to school, the less willing you are to sacrifice the farther down on the ladder you land if you decide to go with a “traditional” job where you make an hourly wage.

The less you make the less options you have available for you, and the less time you have to get involved.  At this point if you do care about your position, you have to focus on yourself, and not on everyone as a group.

In summary I propose:

  • The hardest workers and people with more options in life are the ones who accept the system.
  • The people who don’t fit as well into the system are bogged down so that they can not gain influence.

Although the situation is more of one that developed over time than one that was conspired and produced.